YMonday, August 07, 2006
my bubble of joy....
I am not feeling well today. I am not in the mood for anything. I would just like to rub my sheets and plant my face into my pillow all through out the day. I guess i've been stressed out a lot which explains why i've been acting so weird lately. I've been getting a lot of comments like 'hey toni , you look so tired' or ' you need to rest, go home!' I know. I badly need it! Don't rub it in!
And then maybe i wasn't paying close enough attention with the way i look nowadays or maybe because im getting too comfortable 'being' in a relationship. You know, when you're with somebody special who never fails to give you compliments like 'you're the most beautiful person i've seen in my entire life' and mushy things like that. You tend to be too comfortable, unknowingly, you're becoming lazy to care about your looks anymore. This explains why a lot of guys are tempted to carry on 'extra' relationships despite the fact that they have a certain person whom they truly care for.
I mean why are there girls mourning as to how their guys creep behind their backs. When the answers right under their nose. Of course, your man must be so tired seeing you wearing the same clothes over and over, or that lipstick shade you've been using for ages. I mean c'mon you girls know for a fact that Men have always judged women by a physical standard, where as women have been less judgmental to their own looks. Sad fact.
Anyhow, I am just so lucky to have JC in my life. He who doesn't care if i spend hours in front of the mirror searching for the 'right get up', he who cares less whether i put on make up or just plainly wear a lip gloss.. *with nothing but a t shirt on, i've never felt so beautiful baby as i do now.. now that im with you* haha
Picture me floating in my own bubble of happiness.. dare not pop it, ayt?
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I'm Old, you're Not!
Went to Lola's house with my fam yesterday. She immediately led me to her garden. I love the colors these flowers make up. It's like being near to a rainbow with pots of gold at the end of it. And when i touched these flowers it gave me the sense of serenity. I cannot forget the look on Lola's face when she told me how these flowers changed her outlook in life.
'You know, When your lolo died, he seems to take all the colors in my life with him to grave. Now i no longer feel alone, i have these beautiful creation at hand'.
I actually hate it when old people say
'When you get old, iha, you'll know what i'm talking about.'
It's like boldy saying,
'Look Little one, you still have your umbilical cord connected to mommy'.
Well, we all wanna feel babied at times but then again, i too, have my own stories to share that maybe these old peeps doesn't know anything about.
Anyhow,I am still amazed with how lola managed to grow all these beautiful flowers.
'I have a green thumb, iha.' I believe so.
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