It's all hidden.

Dolphin's Cry

Dolphin's Cry- live listen Here.

life is like a shooting star
it don't matter who you are
if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
we are lost 'til we are found
this phoenix rises up from the ground
and all these wars are over

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 7:59 AM .

Controversy screams and kills

Dear life,

im a swim the deepest sea while you watch me drown from afar.

id take the pill you've given me and take a shot from there.

im a take the knife, cut myself into pieces, and lastly

id def fit the corpse bed you've sent me.

see, i appreciate you... still...

in tears,
Toni

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 9:37 AM .

Beautiful People

Aww those legs!

Is she for real?

She's All That

Daym! She's Hot!

Gimme that Purple Bag!

cool cool get up...

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 7:30 AM .

"I turn all ghetto and I'm pretty much PISSED OFF"

Much has been said from the title itself. I need not fuckin' elaborate.

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 2:46 AM .

click! click!

Gadgets get garbed!

I just had mine at GMask Robinsons Galleria. ( visit www.gmask.com.ph )

I so love this billboard! When can i have my own? tee-hee

Baby Rocky.. i call him the rocky 'rott'..

and baby oreo...

My recent trip to intramuros..

I had so much fun taking all these pictures!

At the Manila Cathedral..

Lastly,
Me and my man!

*the end

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 3:00 PM .

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 6:20 PM .

It's my boy's day today!

dear JC,

I can best describe our relationship as riding a roller coaster. We have our own share of ups and down and at times we feel like giving up. But then at the end of the day, we both realize that having each other is a blessing we have to keep for eternity.
i love you, babe.. I have found happiness and contentment with you..

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY!

xoXxXo ( small kiss, hug, big kiss, small kiss, big kiss, hug ) Toni

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 4:28 PM .

John Tucker Must Die

I swear im'a find time to watch this movie! yuhoo, babes??!!

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 5:53 PM .

Don't tell me you didn't see it coming?

There are the times when you do everything you can and you dont get proper credits. And when you think you're not in the mood to move a finger then you get the attention you badly need. Huh. Life is so strange. It'll take you somewhere sad and then leave you hanging. Sad fact.

On the other hand,

I've read Marthy's blog and there was this fuckin' loser who kept on buggin' marthy with real bad commentos..

( middle finger raised )

*Hey you, if you don't find our site interesting then bug off!
Oh wait up, Pearly has a piece for you too!
'who made you the grammar police dickhead!! why dont you make your own gramatically correct blog?' ( way to go, girlfriend! )

Can't wait for weekend til then Im a have to wait for my boy to catch me some fairies.. yey! And i might just create another bubble of happiness and stay in there for awhile.

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 5:23 PM .

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 4:57 PM .

Martha Casantosan

Hey marthi i am not OBSESSED with Jeanne PEARLY! For Pete's sake!
And atleast i don't have fuckin' favoritism.. why the hell talk about her instead of me? heh. By the way, here's one for you... because i heart* you too, you mothah faucka!

three names Martha goes by:
1. Marthi
2. Casantosan
3. Marts ( what the?! )

Martha's three screen names:
1. Paint Pastel Princess
2. wicked witch ( haha )
3. Bitter thirteen

three physical things she likes about herself:
1. her feet ( i think )
2. her hair
3. uummm... OMG i can't think of anything.

three things that scares her:
1. GIN
2. GIN
3. GIN

two of her everyday essentials:
1. music player
2. her eyewear

two of her favorite musical artists as of now:
1. Mishka Adams
2. Isha

two of her favorite songs:
1. Thomas and Teresa
2. Autumn Leaves

three things about the opposite sex that appeals to her:
1. bald
2. old, and
3. you have to be a foreigner!

two of her favorite hobbies:
1. beach bummin'
2. raisin' a lobster

two careers she's considering/she've considered:
1. adult site writer
2. porn star

two places she wants to go on vacation:
1. Subic ( and yay! swim with the dolphins )
2. Bohol

two kid's names she likes:
1. Antonette
2. Jeanne Pearl

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Movies i currently love:

1. The Devil Wears Prada
2. You, Me and Dupree
3. Little Man

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 6:27 PM .

everyone's on a busy mode

As i type this entry, our workplace is getting a lot busy for the photoshoot. The CEO have decided to post some pictures of the work and floor area, pantry, agents, nurses, i.t and the executive heads on it's newest company website. And everyone was like astonished with how the things are done around here. heh. So funny we, along with my girls, are excited to have our photos taken. I must admit i'm a cam whore and i'm happy i've found another cam whore in no time-- ica!

1..2...3... click!

Anyhow, i've been getting a lot of email, calls and SMS lately. Friends from all over askin' me how was i doin' and stuff. This has got to do with my previous entries, i've been whining about a lot of things that i have no time to realize the silver lining amidst the storm. And yes, friends, i'm okay.. Things have been pretty hard these past few days but swear im over it now. Amongst the many many SMS that i've received during those hard days, i'd like to share this one great message from chris that amazingly moved me.

'Today, before you think of any unkind word, think of ssomeone who can't speak. Before you complain about the food you eat, think of someone who has nothing to. Before you complain about life, think of someone who died early. And when you are tired and complainin about your job, think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wish they have your job and when depressing thoughts seem to get you down, put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around. Life is a gift. Live it well.'

Thank you, friends. Now i realized there's nothing to be sad about. I have real friends to share me some smile and comfort. Thanks a lot, guys. Love y'all. mwaahh..

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Busy City Life ( even tall buildings has it's own stories to share )

At the Carpark..

I'm a let my bestfriend digi cam rest for now..
Till then, guys..

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 8:22 AM .

Robinson's Galeria is ginormous.

Watched the movie click. To be brutally frank, I love Adam Sandler and his antiques but i don't find this movie that great. So it's a waste of time to even talk about it. heh. I circled Galeria for like friggin 5 hours. And found most of our time at 50th Avenue trying to appreciate it's good finds and of course it's gigantic amusement center.

There was a magnificent carousel. The music was enchanting; the horses hand painted. What a beautiful sight!

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 7:38 AM .

Bittersweet Symphony Lyrics
by The Verve

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah,

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
Try to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet yeah

You know I can change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

I can't change my mold
no, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
no, no, no

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Have you ever been down?
Have you've ever been down?

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 6:59 AM .

Pictures Talk

God knows how much i missed posting pictures! It took me forever to upload all these. The 'upload photo' button sucks! Maybe i should write a letter or somethin' and let them know that i'm having a hard time posting pics everytime. There's gotta be a way.

Jerome's MILO Best Taekwondo Competition

At Shakey's with Dad,

Mom and 'lil Bro

Lola Icay, Lola Chelay, Lola Toning and Lola Juvengveng :p

Gateway Madness

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The outside world is never easy. I would just like to succumb inside my shell and be stuck there forever. There are few things i would like to understand about the real world per se but at times i'm afraid to. Well, i blame you mom. You should have atleast informed me how cruel the world is. How drastic it is to make decisions and pretend to be good at it. It is super easy to be picked up and dropped off somewhere. You know what i'm sayin'? I'm aware these are dangerous words and i shouldn't be writing this in the first place. I guess blogspot is curative in a way that's why i'm here typing away all these non sense shit.

Look! a tear drop fell.

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 3:57 AM .

Swept Away by random emotions

The movie 'swept away' somehow scared the shit out of me. It only reminded me that some good things never do really last. Like in the movie a married woman found love and happiness with a sicilian fisherman in to a godforsaken island but in the end had to part ways, and both be victims of love. Scary aint it? I am just scared that the happiness that i have in my hands today might be blown away by some tragedy or something like it. Not that i'm being pessimistic at this point. But hey you know what, i've read this article that it actually helps being negative at times. And one best thing it can do is that when you think about possible negative things you can actually prevent it from happening.

Ok, trying to be serious for a second or two.
I am always surprised and always a bit disgusted by the trail of thoughts of some people. Hence, the promiscious behaviour of certain people make me startled and astonished. How inappropiate - in my consideration - feeling such the relationship such as friendship has lost it's honesty and foundation.

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depression and sadness will leave you dead

No matter how a person tries to cover up his feelings, it'll show still. Not necessarily with the use of words but based on his actions, it'll definitely come up. Like it would just pop out of nowhere. The feelings you try to hide suddenly spells out across your face giving everyone the chance to read it. And by far, let everyone knows it. So why hide it in the first place?

Where is that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? I've been patiently waiting all this time. They say i'm at it but one question remains-- do i have to wait like forever?

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 3:09 AM .

Another Used To Be

We used to be this close.
You washed my fork.
We share your food.
You even gave me dolphins.
Then she came.
And you've completely forgotten i exist.
But that's okay. I know you're fine.
I'm just a bit jealous. For now.
But i'm positive it'll pass.

*Here you go again, Toni..
Don't be too possesive when it comes to friends..

Remember, people come and people go.

Time to let go of that red balloon now..
Fly.. Fly...

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Woman's Bestfriend

I learned it just now. We all have to atleast keep one safety pin in our purse. You may never know when it's needed. It was a very very embarassing moment to date! waaaaaah! I need not elaborate on this. Period.

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 5:17 AM .