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YSunday, December 31, 2006

Sun 31 Dec 2006

and so i was like kinda lost lately. so what? that makes me human. o yeah, there were sleepless nights, countless tears and unforgivable cursing! and whenever i see my mom cryin because she cant stand the fact that im hurtin'.. i cant help but blame myself. why can't i just hide this pain, why cant i just plant a beauty queen smile on my face and be the greatest pretender of all. people around me who cares for me deeply are hurtin seein me hurtin. and that def hurts.

there are ugly circumstances and sure itll cut deep. but one cant outrule them... you dont have control over it and that fact y'all have to accept. but you have control over your feelings. if you let these trouble affect you then that makes you a loser. and im talking about the big L right in yer forehead.

well.... as ive mentioned im a stop whining thats on top of my new years resolution. am no longer getting any younger, and i should quit whining like a lil kid deprived of a barbie doll from a toy store.

as i look back, 2006 aint that bad at all. ive met new people im my life. different aquaintances, diffrent faces, they all come and go. and who knows maybe a former enemy makes a good friend too. who knows? You see when you accept people in yer life and when you allow them them to be a part of you, then by chance you're givin' them the right to hurt you in million ways.. well, maybe thats the reason i only have few friends. i must admit i cant win any popularity contests. for i only have what? few friends? friends from high school, few ex officemates, some beach buds and some college friends. but what the heck i care less about having 'entourage' when i go clubbin or shoppin'.. what i need are true people... and these few friends of mine, have seen me in my worst but sticks around still... how sweet eh? life is sweet.. its all about positivity! know what im sayin'?

alright alright... im not gon bore you with non sense shit.... on the lighter side... ive watched the movie 'material girls' starring the duff sistahz... say what? what do i think of this movie?? great! NOT!

so, its like hours from now and we'll leave 2006 behind... hello 2007!
as in H to the ELLO! hello!

im excited.... excited to leave all the excess baggage behind.... o gawd!
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YSaturday, December 30, 2006

Sat 30 Dec 2006

i hate...
1. people talkin when im watchin tyra show.
2. freakin' scumbags
3. gossipers
4. worms
5. nights after every break up
6. failed relationships, wasted time and effort
7. treachery
8. mosquitoes
9. fake laughter, fake faces
10. annoyin' cab drivers
11. using public toilets
12. whenever i ran out of alcogel or alcohol in mah locker

im scared of...
1. sudden death
2. ageing

i heart..
1. butterfinger choc
2. yellow tulips
3. pink lilac nail color
4. stilettos
5. my digicam
6. clubbin'
7. italian food
8. tyra banks
9. margarita
10. boracay
11. dogs
12. damien rice
13. california maki
14. tokyo tokyo's Red ice tea
15. choco butternut
16. mermaids
17. fashion magazines
18. skinny jeans
19. dolphins
20. surprises!

songs i currently love...
1. goodbye my lover by james blunt
2. nakapagtataka by sponge cola
3. saturday night by suede
4. blowers daughter by damien rice
5. boulevard of broken dreams by green day

my fave...
1. color : purple and black
2. band: gnr
3. song stanza :
A.
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
-boluevard of broken dreams (green day)
B.
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
-blowers daughter (damien rice)
C.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
-my immortal ( evanescence)
4. movie line:
a. hello stranger. ( closer 2005 )
b. "What good would wings be
if you couldn't feel wind on your face?" ( city of angels 1996)
5. fruit: pear
6. scent: pear glaze victoria secret
7. cartoon character: betty boop
8. my canon digicam
5. solo artist : damien rice and james blunt ( as of the moment)

i have a collection of..
1. shoes
2. teddy bears
3. porcelain dolls

can't live home without my..
1. digicam
2. sunblock ( for the face )

can't face people without any..
1. waterproof mascara on ( i'm a cry baby that's why )
2. and a pink tint blush on
3. lip gloss

i'd love to travel / visit..
1. ROME

My guilty pleasure...
1. Chocolates

i feel sad for..
1. street children ( if i could only share my home with them )
2. ambushed politicians
3. misunderstood beings
4. fashion models who died/is suffering of/from anorexia
5. everytime i hear the song 'my immortal' by evanescence
6. lost friends due to circumstances

if i could only bring back the time, i'd..
1. ask for forgiveness from.. ( i actually have a list of names )
2. wanna be friends with all my ex
3. never would have let go of my college friends 'tropang obernayt'

if theres one thing i wish before the year ends...
1. see ely's baby and meet his wife

i wanna meet.. in person
1. tyra banks
2. nicolas cage

greatest new years resolution
1. stop whining

start the year right by...
1. confession

Greatest committed Sin
1. Vanity
Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 2:51 PM .

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YFriday, December 29, 2006

Fri 29 Dec 2006

a day with mom and dad...


i arranged an appointment at body tune spa in megamall for my folks. Aside from the bonding time and drinking sessions we usually do over the weekends, (o yeah i drink and get wasted with my parents, so eh? ) having to pamper them with their favorite massage is such a good thing to do. Feels like im the greatest daughter in the world everytime they give me a hug and utter the words 'thank you dahlin' .. wot? wot? wot?
i'm like a baby who still needs my parents appreciation. i like the fact that they check out on me in mah bedroom in the wee hour of the night evrytime they come home from work, tuck me in my comforter and make sure i had my a.c in just about right temp. hehe
yeh im 24 yet, i still wanna be babied. feels good though.

so where were we? o yeah... and so, i introduced them to my recent discovery... body tune spa...

Dad and i had to do some shoppin' first while mom hurried to meet her friends in shang-rila. Then we had dinner with mommy's amigas shortly after..
too bad my bro wasnt able to come for he had his exams that day, so he can't be absent. sigh*

click photo to view more pics. thanks.


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YMonday, December 25, 2006

The sweetest thing


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YWednesday, December 20, 2006

i'm sick, im tired... i'm all confused..

are yah gonna stick with me or not?

are you true or not?

or this is one hell of a deceit?

thought we're this tight..

i dunno am i still gonna hold on and say i'm fuckin' okay..

but words mean nothing for actions speak louder...

i'm a back off for awhile and see if the face you wear is thicker and lovelier than mine...

surround yourself with back ups, wear your armor

but im no fighter.. ill have all my guards down...

ill leave it all to you...

happiness may we both find,,

fake laughter and deception was fine...

but don't expect me to be there now...


im starting to realize this is not me... i am no toni....


i am toni banana.... just a pen name...

i stand before each of you.... with no face.
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YSunday, December 17, 2006

Sun 17 Dec 2006


what oprah says about men:

1. if a man wants you nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't, nothing can make him stay.
2. never let him know everything, he will use it against you later.
3. he is a man, nothing more nothing less
4. you should never look for someone to complete you. a realtionship consists of two whole individuals
5. make him miss you sometimes. when a man always know where you are and know that you're readily availbale, he will take you for granted.


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i need a box of chocolate...

as the old saying goes...

'chocolates can mend a broken heart'....
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YSaturday, December 16, 2006

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YFriday, December 15, 2006

Fri 15 Dec 2006


haha...walang magawa eh... :) wink*

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It was all clean fun gone wrong...

yesterday, chris pulled a prank on me. it was mean and it hurt. But he was sorry all along so i let it pass. Ica told me that chris confessed how sorry and scared he was with what happened. haha
may pasa tuloy ako, chris!... argh.
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YThursday, December 14, 2006

Thurs 14 Dec 2006

Hit it, Nelly!


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YTuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue 12 Dec 2006

At 6750 Makati

I had a blast!

Pls click on the photo to view more pictures
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YMonday, December 11, 2006

Mon 10 Dec 2006

Elisha Cuthbert
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YThursday, December 07, 2006

Thurs 7 Dec 2006

araaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

grabe! sa sobrang haba ng kuko ko, naputol sya! at alam nyo ba na sobrang sakeeeeeeeeeeeet?! as in. tapos di pa sya tigil sa pagdugo. buti na lang may dala si Juve na first aid kit. so ayun naka band aid tuloy ang left thumb ko. huhu kainis nga eh, yun pa naman ang gamit ko pag nagte-text ako.

lahat nga ng nasa paligid ko narinig na may naputol na kuko. ako naman i didnt realize na naputol sya not until may naramdaman na akong masakit sa may left hand ko. tapos yun nga pag tingin ko sa thumb ko, may dumadaloy na-- na kulay red... 'yun dugo nga!


promise masakit tlga! kumikirooooot sya sobwa!

argh!

P.S. in tagalog words so that you guys can visualize it well.. haha

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 7:54 AM .

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YWednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed 6 Nov 2006

Read Martha's blog earlier today. She was ranting about how girls pile on too much make up but DOESN'T even know how to use the washroom properly. haha

well dahlin', that doesn't change the fact that boys are into pretty faces that they don't have balls to ASK them on what they do inside the ladies' and why they spend almost half of their lifetime inside it.

And i'm sure you're aware why some girls are into mastering the art of make up rather than to familiarize themselves on how to wipe their trunk using a toilet paper and to flush it out after.

eewww.

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Last tuesday night, i met up with my bestfriend, Precious..
( at last! )
and heard the news first hand!
( thank God. )

She is 5 months pregnant!

And I was like,

'Why didn't you tell me right away? You've waited 5 freakin' LONG mos. to break the news on me?'

and she explained why in a remorse voice..

Girl, i feel you. Trials like these makes us human. It'll help us recognize the blessings we have in a different way. Sure life may creep on you real bad, but in the long run you'd be thankful to have experienced every tear drop, every pain, every suffering... but guesss what? The best part of it all is to be able to get up every after fall...

Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed.
- Corita Kent

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YMonday, December 04, 2006

Mon 4 Dec 2006

I am not myself lately. its easy to be dropped off somewhere and then find a hard time trying to pick up yourself from pieces. darn.

dustin' myself off *

on a much lighter side, im trying to grow my hair now ( and my nails too! ) . well, i must admit there were days when i'm really tempted to cut it off.. those dreaded days. But what the heck! I dont care if there'd be stubborn hair days all i want is to see it longer than usual so i can style it in different ways...

last saturday i partied with some of JC's friends at I.O Jupiter Makati. It was a hell of a purteeh!
overflowing margarita and bloody mary baybeee! SPELL a-w-e-s-o-m-e! ( pictures soon )

*air clappin'

So earlier that saturday eve, just before that i.o party, i was in Eastwood to meet up Bette and her boyfriend, James. We had dinner at Teriyaki Boy and took some pictures of ourselves.. Bette will be off to Taiwan few days from now. So that was the meeting all about eh? I miss this gurl. I miss the good times back at our old company.
Bette is sure one of the few transparent people ive ever come acrossed with. A keeper.
Love yah bette... and James, i am so happy to see the fire of love bind you two.

Oreo, my dog. he's just the cutest thing following me around the house. la lang. sumagi lang sa isip ko. hehe

as i type these words i'm listening to anton's ipod, well to anton's music that is. He handed it over to me, from out of the blue as i passed by his station and said,

'Hey wanna listen to some weird music? Here.'

'sure.'

The other day i was messing around with Juve's player and know what it's good to snoop around other people's player and see what type of music these people are into and eventually learn even a bit of their personalities by just merely.. guess what?.. listening.

sometimes you dont have to listen to all the stories people has to say about themselves. For some of them wears masks you can't even tell. Some are drama queen, prima donna some are impostors, copy cat and so fort. Sure there are nice people around.. but at times these nice people can turn themselves into their own evil selves and it 'll be too late for you to learn and say,

'oh did i just fall for that?'

daym it.

oppssiee wait..
lemme share Ica's text message to me just before i catch some shut eye last night..

"All you have to do in life is go out with your friends, party hard, and look twice as good as the bitch standin' next to you." - Paris Hilton

haha. Funny.

Vhaneedozah told you a beauty secret at 7:25 AM .