YSunday, December 31, 2006
Sun 31 Dec 2006
and so i was like kinda lost lately. so what? that makes me human. o yeah, there were sleepless nights, countless tears and unforgivable cursing! and whenever i see my mom cryin because she cant stand the fact that im hurtin'.. i cant help but blame myself. why can't i just hide this pain, why cant i just plant a beauty queen smile on my face and be the greatest pretender of all. people around me who cares for me deeply are hurtin seein me hurtin. and that def hurts.
there are ugly circumstances and sure itll cut deep. but one cant outrule them... you dont have control over it and that fact y'all have to accept. but you have control over your feelings. if you let these trouble affect you then that makes you a loser. and im talking about the big L right in yer forehead.
well.... as ive mentioned im a stop whining thats on top of my new years resolution. am no longer getting any younger, and i should quit whining like a lil kid deprived of a barbie doll from a toy store.
as i look back, 2006 aint that bad at all. ive met new people im my life. different aquaintances, diffrent faces, they all come and go. and who knows maybe a former enemy makes a good friend too. who knows? You see when you accept people in yer life and when you allow them them to be a part of you, then by chance you're givin' them the right to hurt you in million ways.. well, maybe thats the reason i only have few friends. i must admit i cant win any popularity contests. for i only have what? few friends? friends from high school, few ex officemates, some beach buds and some college friends. but what the heck i care less about having 'entourage' when i go clubbin or shoppin'.. what i need are true people... and these few friends of mine, have seen me in my worst but sticks around still... how sweet eh? life is sweet.. its all about positivity! know what im sayin'?
alright alright... im not gon bore you with non sense shit.... on the lighter side... ive watched the movie 'material girls' starring the duff sistahz... say what? what do i think of this movie?? great! NOT! 
so, its like hours from now and we'll leave 2006 behind... hello 2007!
as in H to the ELLO! hello!
im excited.... excited to leave all the excess baggage behind.... o gawd!
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