YWednesday, March 26, 2008
I haven't updated for the longest time. I feel like I've abandoned this thing.
Well, I guess in a way I kinda have. It's just harder than I thought,
keeping this journal alive. Words aren't enough to cover the days I've spent.
It just isn't working. I made this journal because I wanted to keep track of my life; keep track of who I am.
Someone once told me to make a journal, to write everything down, and one day when I get the chance to look back on it, I'll know what I've done with my life; that no matter what I think I didn't waste it. She said through a journal, it makes life less boring than what I used to think. She was right in a way. But then, the experience itself is what I'm after. The experience itself cannot be said through bold black sentences. It just doesn't live up to what it really is.
Looking back,
I realize that i have changed. I used to look up a lot and the end of the day, no matter what,
at least i had that big, beautiful sky to keep me interested. I don't look up anymore. I don't even look down. I've stopped bothering to look at all. I go through life without stopping to think about anything. I should really start paying more attention. I could be dead by now and not even know it.
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I've been having so much trouble getting sleep for the past couple of weeks.
:( it sucks.
Q: Does sheep counting still works?
A: Duh. I don't efin think so.
eewww... This entry is so stupid. It makes me look bad. Maybe this is the result of not having to blog at all for like forever and so i must stop this shit before it gets stupid-er..
tee-hee..
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YFriday, March 14, 2008
im back.
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